what a day

I've come to realize that i've become someone else i never dreamt i'd become.
I feel like i've become like one of those "bitchy" girls in school, who always talks smack abt others behind their back, and calling them nasty names.
The amount of bitching i've done in the past 3-4 mths...would be the amount of smack i ever talked about anyone in my 4 yrs of secondary sch, and 3 yrs of poly combined.
I kid you not. I'm serious. Lately, i bitch every 30mins to an hr.

For that, i just clocked in another hr of "bitch-ness" to that every growing number today.
This time, it was cause i got thrown under the bus in front of my friends... behind my back...
Yeah sure, being thrown under the bus happens when you say something to someone and they say it like how it is to the person you don't want knowing that something.

Well... mine's a little different. I got thrown under the bus... WITH MY WORDS TWISTED... Twisted majorly that it distorts its originality and pure "innocence" in every way.

I need more soul searching...
I always say, Karma's a bitch, tts why they get sick very often and easily, and get twitchy anxiety and shit. because you deserve it.

I need to stop this bitching, cause very soon, Karma might turn round and claim its next victim...ME...
Cause if it does, then it makes me no different from their already miserable lives.

I must always remember. I've got friends and family who love me and want me to be happy. I've got things i like to do during weekends and after work. I've ACTUALLY got people to talk to who will listen to me...

Help.......